I feel lost. Really lost. Exactly what in the world am I doing? Damn, I got myself into such mess, and yet, I have no idea how to tidy it up once again. It's been only 19 days into the start of the year, and it seems as though I am living on false hopes. Nevermind about that. I'll just have to take things one at a time, step by step, and it will turn out fine. Just 4 more weeks and the burden will be greatly reduced. Who knows, things might even get better once the holidays are here.
Anyway, today, was a really bad day. In the morning, woke up extremely early from a very weird dream. Looking back, that was the first time I dreamt of something for 4 consecutive nights. I really hope tonight would not be the fifth, especially when the 4th resulted in me experiencing a very strong deja vu. The something that I least expected to happen, happened. How I wish I was never given such an ability.
Later on in class, I was wrong to think that my drive to study was back again, when I suddenly lost the mood to complete the last part of the exercise. So, went with Jenere, Jian Hui and Amanda for lunch at 11am.
Many things went wrong during lunch, one of them was the silly me, who bought an extra sanwich for lunch, but it became my meal for the day when I felt very uncomfortable after awhile. So, had no choice but to skip training for the day, meaning that I would be returning for training only next Thursday.
Things got worse again back in school, when we found out at the last minute that an interview could not be held due to reasons citing privacy as an issue. Hopefully we could come up with something fast. Went to the library after that for about 45 minutes to discuss about the upcoming presentation on Thursday, and also learnt a couple of stuff from Hong Peng.
At 2.45pm, went home with him an another friend. So, I took 963 home from school(via transfer) for the first time since I first entered the school. Nice.Slept for quite some time before evening, did a little on the presentation and revision for tomorrow's Economics quiz, before slacking off. Right now, I'm lost, as a result of the whole day's happenings. Nevermind. Tomorrow, I'm sure something exciting would happen, so exciting that I might even be on overdrive for the rest of the term for studying till the last paper is held in 4 weeks' time. Oh yes, and before I forget, after a long, long time, I am finally getting inspirations for a poem. Once I got it, I'll post it up.
I am lost, once again. Yes, after a long time indeed. Just 9 months later, I find myself about to break the promise I made. It might occur to you that everything's going according to plan, but hey, that's just the tip of the iceberg. There's more than meets the eye. Like what the others have said. Don't bother making plans for such stuff. Just let the events unfold before you, and take your time. There is one question that I am still pondering over after so long: Why do girls dislike boys?
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